The wedding weekend came like a lion and went like a lamb. Mostly because my last friend to depart from me will forever be etched into my memory with lambs, along with lilacs, but also because what began with hustle and bustle diminished into rain and exhaustion. It was a fabulous weekend all around - fabulous people, fabulous food, fabulous clothes, fabulous, fabulous, fabulous. I did have to sigh a great gust of relief when the immediate days before me became not so filled with lists and to-dos as relaxation and back to status quo, both suddenly too still and a relief to my overworked brain. There's a definite empty vibration left over in my apartment after enjoying the company and conversation of close friends, like ghosts that you wonder if you really saw and heard, or if was just a trick of the imagination, so fleeting.
Last night, my first night alone in a few days, I took a break from everything. Sprawled on the couch and directed my full attention to the tube, falling into sleep at some time I can't remember. Tonight I made a goal of spending quality time with my beads, who I've neglected for weeks. (Yes, I referred to my beads as "who", it's a deliberate mixing of pronouns.) I beaded my friend's wedding centerpieces, of course, but by wreath five or six I kind of mindlessly went after the task to get the job done. Not quality time, no love, no one-ness with the craft. Well, I fell asleep in the early evening, but am currently working on a pair of green earrings to pair with tomorrow's outfit to work. Stopped to make some honey chamomile tea in the process and tea has a knack for slowing down my mind and making it more gelatinous, which is more conducive for rambling.
Valentine's weekend is coming up, and I made my boyfriend swear that he would not spend money on me. Not having money at present myself, I can hardly expect him to spend it on me. He tells me that's not a problem, that he's already gotten my gift all ready, so I'm really looking forward to what he's come up with. I have an idea or two, but we'll just have to see. :D Still puzzling over what to do for him, but I'm pretty talented at last minute adventures, and I still have days until I'm pushing the last minute!
